HOPE

Yer, i know, a four letter word. Have been thinking about four letter words.

And yep, especially since the demise of Robin Williams. Not least because the name 'Williams' belongs to my mother's family (no blood relation). Apparently my grandfather Williams (on Mother's side)
 "Never gave up - or 'in'".

Yep, they have all, now, "exited stage left". My mother didn't go 'quietly', but needs some information as to why i write that. She held onto her arrogant assumption that she could 'remain in control' for eternity, until age 89. Then, oops, more parts of her body began to fail, collapse. She went into hospital with multiple organ failure.

I was with her then, and myself and cousin had to make some decisions. There was a discussion with the surgeon. He told us that yes, they could repair her heart valve but ....

Decision time. Do we say yes, or no. First time that self had been specifically confronted with a decision that meant life - or death. The surgeon told us that she would not survive major heart surgery.  If i had said no surgery; let her go - she would have died that night.

My cousin was looking at me, and i was looking at him. We couldn't make that decision. So, the surgeon said, ok, wait for an hour or so. he went somewhere, consulted, came back and told us - ok, we can put in a 'stent', no guarantees. We agreed. That happened.

 Dunno, now, whether that was the best decision. My mother remained in a coma, in intensive care, for six weeks. There was always, in my mind "hope" that she would 'return', talk to me - but it was not the case.

And yep, to be honest, would turn up at her bedside every now and then, thump her shoulder; tell her "Oy, yer not allowed to go out on an odd number. Try to get to 90". But she never listened to me.

the hospital called me in, one Saturday morning. Told me that she was 'very close', but knew what that meant.
Was holding her hand when she expired for the last time.
 (inspiration- expiration, breathing).

The nurses told me that they called her 'the walker'. Even in a coma, she couldn't keep her legs still. Nobody knows where she was walking to.

And no, there were no "heavenly choirs" when she breathed her last. No "mysterious emanations" hovering around the ceiling. She was. simply. dead.



Dunno where i'll be when it happens. Hopefully won't leave too much of a mess.

Hopefully, each evening, when my days chores are done, i curl up into the warmth of the bedding, and a dog curls in beside me ... there will be a sunrise that kisses my eyelids a few hours later.

operntunity

OK Smartiepants

Who changed my profile pic?
Own up ( email me)

(be nice to know "how"; but if you tell me who, or indeed "why" - I might put the image 'upfront', if that makes sense).

Osama been Loading

.. mm, should i be glad to see THAT myth laid to rest?

.. and in the morning ..

Larrikins: JWH on right.

March 1945

.. am still here, dad.

passion and ..

mm, apparently this sort of thing doesn't really work all that well on this blog format.

Anyway, just put the headphones on, sit back, and listen.
Thanks, Niel.

(am also posting this for reasons best known to myself .. and possibly one other)

Intriguing mysteries

Um, having 24/7 access to the internet is becoming rather fascinating. (yer, I know, should be out in the garden planting stuff).

Have just come across this intriguing mystery. There is a picture (and video, apparently) of what looks like a missile contrail off the Californian coast, but nobody knows (or claims to know) what caused it, or who fired it - Pentagon claims "probably aircraft".

Will just put some links in for the longish stories
http://twelfthbough.blogspot.com/2010/11/missile-story-continue.html
http://pennyforyourthoughts2.blogspot.com/2010/11/missile-launches-g-20-fall-out-super.html
However, the bit that really intrigues me is that have no mention of it in Australian news - but that's not surprising, do not have TV or access to daily papers, only radio. Has anyone else in Australia seen any mention?

Not only that, I tried to have a squizz at the video, but uTube informs me that "this video is not available in your country" ????? Since when have uTube gone in for "censorship"?

UPDATE: ooops, dunno which video that i was trying to access - but there are heaps of versions on uTube.

hopefully this one works. (that'll teach me to go off 'half cocked').

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kL6OvDCXKLg

Haven't studied this in much detail, as yet, but am wondering if this article  has something to do with it (musn't frighten the locals?)
http://heritage.org/Research/Reports/2010/11/Give-Australia-Reason-to-Believe-in-American-Leadership

Will try to spend some more time fossicking - and yup, have set up another blog - and further updates
http://calvstock.blogspot.com/2010/11/missile-mystery-1.html
to try and follow up on this; will keep Womby's drivel to itself.